Menganggur for about 6 months right after my graduation day.Felt like a loser. Moreover, bila dgr most of my classmate already got job.Happy for them, tapi bila tgk diri sendiri.. haiyak ...damn life was hard at that time.
Later on, after six month. Im starting my career as a Management Associate at Malaysian Industrial Finance Berhad (MIDF). I've been there for training about 6 months.My life pretty hectic then, as i tried so hard to embrace with the new environment, with my boss, with my team mate and also my colleague.Tried so hard to understand the industry, the client, the business, the credit paper etc. Life never been easy at that time. After two month i've been jadi Management Associate, i've been thinking a lot about resigning.Ye la, bila satu masa terasa down giler...
Especially when i came out with my very first project paper. Kena hentam bagai nak rak by the credit committee which all of them are the top management. Mane nak letak muka masa tuh. Even my immediate bos at that time pon kata, that was his first time kena hentam teruk just because trying so hard to defense my paper.
Now, i dont even believe i could stay long enough. I almost want to cry bila teringat that moments. However, i always remember advise from vice president ..."When ur working here fazlin, one advise from me, never give up!" Thus, i tried so hard to belayar bersama2 captain of the "ship". Ching..Ching.. Whateva. Finally, right after that. My team won for the best team for last year..wink..wink.. So, our team dapat pergi Company Trip..(anyway, for some reason i cancelled everything and tak ikot pon that trip haha).
At that point of time, mula semangat about career. Berangan dapat confirmed as a staff. Berangan lagi pasal high salary...$$$$$$$...more than RM5k..bonus...bonanza...Then, berangan lagi about the title la konon nye..Acc Manager... (Masa nih, mula tidak berpijak pada bumi yang nyata).
Careerwise, memang best.Lupa diri. Yet i sedar lupa diri.hahaha.Reason why? Most of the people there were competitive.Most of the acc manager were young, at the age of 24-27 years old. Not to mentoned, there were from different education background including engineering and law. Pelik kan. Lupa kan pasal pointer. Why? Nak lepas interview pon susah, kena at least 3.5 and above or first class degree. Then, tiba2 ada kena wat essay la bagai.
Lepas jadi confirmed staff, i got new team, new boss and new collueage. Just three of us. My VP bg nama girls power since ada sorang lagi new trainee perempuan masuk my team.Life been so easy as my new team member especially my boss semua sempoi...and sap..sap..soi cara kerja dorang senang nak ikut rentak...However........
Now, its been a year I'm working at MIDF. Since jadi Acc Mngr kat situ......
Workload...stress...workload...stress...exhausted...
Careerwise its a good place. But then, since i was a kid..i want a be a housewife..heee...meaning to say, once i get green light untuk berhenti keja. It will be my pleasure. Tapi...tapi...dan tapi....teringat2...Macam xpercaya dulu all the 3 important people defend me giler2 utk ensure i jadi confirmed staff..kalau dorang tahu i nak resign..one sentence sure punya akan i dengar....
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p/s: sy suka post and edit post lebih sepuluh kali...hahaha
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