I passed!

M.o.d.e - H.a.p.p.y

Yeay!!!
I passed my test today!
Cant believe it, I'm so relief.

(^_~)

xoxo
Love Lin.

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Hey frenz~(haa....kau tuh jgn nak rase kwn aku plak...kenal aku pon tidak..gler kejam ayat aku...biar kan.I dont live to please you okayh.)<--- ni tiru ayat mira sket.tapi dgn sedikit ubahsuai la..tgk blog dia miracleinmira... gler best...Mira nih funny...n ceria sgt....sgt stylish...mira slh satu kawan baik sy....----> wane biru wane kesukaan dia..(Mira awk anggap kita kwn baik awk juga x?...kalau x...kita delete balik pujian2 nih...)hahaha

Hmm...giler bosan ari2 duk umah.Lately x ske berfacebook.kalau main fb pon.just update status sket (eg statu kat fb : updating my blog...)Mcm ni la... lagi ske abis kan masa kat blog..sbb? (Okhairu jer tau...luv u syg!! heheek...) Okayh.My daily-activity- sejak-bosan- duk- umah...24/7...sy tgk blog jer keja...

Lgpon ske mengadap semua link kat blog sendiri...cuba tgk kat tepi my blog lay out tuh. LisT....Hotty.Notty.Cheeky.....link tuh....setiap saat pon I tenung! heeheeeeeek!

Xpon...tukar layout blog...kadang2 hampir setiap hari pon nk ubah layout...hehe....(kali ni letak pic muka sendiri tuh haaaa-gler besar...motif? haaaa. tnjuk sy sgt bosan..theee.....kalau mcm mls tgk..xyah tgk...heeek!)

I ske tgk blog org2 yang dah jadi my follower. Then I will follow their blog either. Bila kat blog dorang I baca entry yg menarik dihati. Activity lain termasuk I akan Click semua blog yang dorang follow. So it means kalau berjam2 sy ada view your blog tuh...sbb u all ada list blog kwn2 gler best...so i click semua...tuh yg berjam2 kat situ yer...(haaahhh....baru la nk g tgk layout masing2 sape yg byk link ke blog yg popular n best tuh..kn..kn ..theee.) Then masa tgk2 blog org2 yang korang link kn, I ske tgk dgn wat new window..tab..byk2..then... I bukan reti off laptop...mayb 24/7...cth terbaik....2 3 hari nih...kul 6 pagi baru tdo...mane off pon my lappy..(Bukti?? tanye Nua okhairu...sy msg dia kul 3 pagi la..kul 4..kul 6 pagi...heee...wpon dia tgh tdo....biar la...sy ttp msg...rndu die..) Plus...i pon xtau ..link tuh akan ke blog yang best-popular atau jenis blog yang x di update....kalau dah click..baru la tau kan...sbb tuh I ske click semua...kalau best I follow...so no big deal.


xoxo
Love Lin

.Transparent.

Jealousy in a relationship...Regardless of what others might do or say towards him.. Those question start to comes.. like...Who he will meet today at work? Lunch with whom? Talk to whom? Laugh with whom? Who he associate with? or Who he have relationships with? Who might be giving my partner attention? and to whom him may be more attracted to? Then, somewhere in your mind, you are questioning yourself. You will always be wondering about your looks, your intelligence, your relationship skills and all other factors that may break your relationship and make your lover go into another relationship.

Simple example,situasi mencemaskan when you begin to lie about little things(contoh, pasangan anda tanya anda wat ape arini...anda menjawab...satu hari ni saya kat umah..padahal ada la pergi kedai 5 minit kejap beli air ke..tp xbgtau....sbb xmenda pon kn..) what if dia dapat tau...mesti dia terpikir2..nape benda simple tuh pon x bgtau,it will end up dengan your partner disappointed, your partner will believe that you will lie about anything. When dealing with jealousy in a relationship, the best thing that you can do is be completely honest 100 percent of the time.

Either one partner is tired of always having to feel jealous from their lover’s actions, or the other partner gets fed up with always being questioned and hounded.

When in my mind there is a doubt..then I will feel threatening by looking others as a 'predators'..the feeling afraid of loosing..lack of self-confident physically..with all the words in mind about the negative stuff..then tend to hurt and torturing myself..that feeds me the mental images of the worst scenario and leaves me feeling angry, empty, dissatisfied.

I call it perasaan yang menyusahkan diri sendiri. It is about seeing 'normal situation scenario' with the creative over-active imagination...imaginary potential harm ...which is can bring the destructive to my emotions..my thought, my feeling and my behaviors..

I have to work with my own insecurities..sebab obviously 'xda menda' pon. Just diri sendiri suka cari pasal pikir benda negative..heeek~ (Syg...bby memang selalu pikir bukan2...biasa la..syg dia...risau...hehe)
So,I start doing this by discussing with him, without hesitation, everything in my mind. Any worry or jealous instinct I have should be exposed. Then ask that him do the same. If we can do this and be totally open with one another, that will give me the ability to discuss everything and decide where our relationship is going, and what it means, and therefore, whether or not my jealousy is founded or silly..

Masa awal2 hubungan lagi, Okhairu dah pesan...in our relationship,both of us must be' transparent'. I can talk about anything..and he would listen, he would try to understand and be cool.. Sebab dia xnampak ada kebaikan kalau x transparent dalam relationship ni. Yeah, he is right.Kalau x transparent its only can create a 'doubt' in a relationship. Decide together to be open with each other. Communicate your worst fears to each other and work through these fears to a positive outcome.Don't bottle it up.The way I say things is very important, so don't make a big deal out of it but be honest with him.

Faith is blind. Faith is a strong belief. It’s a feeling of warmth and loyalty you generate when you believe in yourself, your partner, your family or others.The best way to go about faith in a relationship is to give complete trust.Trust him until he gives you a reason not to.Doubt and not trusting will ruin any relationship.A healthy relationship is based on trust and faith.

Yesterday, you remind me again about 'our plan'. I'm relief.
Love you my dear.

xoxo
Love Lin.

Dating mode

Activity 1 : Shopping

Okhairu dah dapat kerja..(^_~).. so that..dia minta teman shopping baju n seluar kerja.. those picture di snap candid oleh saya ketika Okhairu khusyuk mencari barang2 yang berkenan dihati~

Candid 1
~Looking for new pants~

Candid 2
~ Looking for new clothes~

After dah penat survey kat 2-3 shopping complex area KL...finally, Okhairu terpikat kat baju2 kat pavilion tuh...Tapi dia dalam mode *confuse *...xtau nak beli berapa helai baju...berapa helai seluar...berapa helai tie.. hmm... saya hanya menunggu dan merenung muka dia yg sangat confuse masa tuh...dia x sedar la kot...heee~

Candid 3

~Aksi confuse Okhairu~

Sementara menunggu dia membuat keputusan...heeek~disbbkan bosan menunggu sorang2 kat luar....saya wat aktivity kegemaran....snap la pic ;)

~Smile~

Finally....Okhairu dah decide berapa helai kesemua nya...

~See tergambar muka Okhairu yang sangat ceria..aksi riang ria tanda dah dapat barang2 yang disukai (^_~)~

Setelah selesai memilih baju,seluar..tiba masanya...untuk tengok colour and size yang ada plak..

~Purple~

~Grey~

~Me & Him~

Haa...lepas tuh kena menunggu Okhairu nak wat fitting & potong seluar plak...activity snap picture lagi la....;P

Activity 2 : Makan....

(^_~) Perut dah lapar...masa untuk makan...

~She'll tell you size doesnt matter..make it double~

~Nyummy~

Activity 3 : Horror Movie next..!

~Haa...waktu untuk mendengar jeritan2 dalam wayang..ada ke yang jerit? hahaha...~

Story nih about sleeper horror , watak hantu Freddy Krueger returns...tajuk cerita nih.. "A Nightmare On Elm Street"...being stalked by Freddy Krueger, killer who hunts in their dreams. As long as they stay awake, they can protect one another... but then they sleep, there is no escape la....haaa...sape yang mata lebam macam panda...mesti sbb xtido tgk citer nih kan...huuu~

Activity 4 : Jalan-jalan & Snap picture .....

~Okhairu bersama bola besar Adidas tuh haa...ambil mood World Cup dah dekat ;) ~

p/s: I had fun with him today... and seronok nyer beli dua kasut tadi...satu wedges...satu lagi high heels... (^_^)



xoxo
Love Lin

Your Life : Your Choice ?

Here the things, I try to jot down all my 'impian' yg disimpan since I was in high school...nak tengok mana yang tercapai mana yang otw nak dicapai..hehehe..i come to a conclusion..with a question..heee~ was i do the right thing, or doing things right in my life...(terms business terkeluar lagi..kekeke~ biarkan... ) Life is about making a choice. It is all about making a good choice..and choice suppose to be giving us or for having a freedom to pick one thing than another...

I find myself typically making choice in my life base on :

• "Shoulds" : doing what I believe I should do..
• Pleasing others : doing what others want or expect me to do..coz i believe that's for my own benefit
  
• Fear : choosing the safe route for fear of doing something different..
• Habit and reaction : I don't even think about what am I doing--I've always done it this way..
  
• Desire : choosing something you want..
• Need : responding to deeper desires.
• Authenticity : know who I am and what I stand for.

Tapi, ada aku kesah? hahaha~ xkesah la my choice base on what...yang penting decision tuh made me happy...;)



Okayh~ sekarang nak list kan my to-do-list...xkira short term / long term nyer...dah sekali kan dah ....;) stakat nih...ini jer terpikir.. macam biasa... I love to plan and jotdown my plan..hehe~ bagi clear sket.. tercapai atau x...lain cerita okayh! heee...okayh..here the things:


TO-DO-LIST :

1. Gain weight - bukan la nak badan macam Megan Fox, Jessica Alba or Scarlett Johansson tuh...tapi nk la put some weight sket...haaaa....bukan x boleh put on weight, tapi usaha tuh....cepat sangat putus asa...baru sebulan dua dah give up..dari zaman sekolah pon macam nih...tapi sekarang dah ada yang menyokong..moral support from Mr Nua Okhairu..:) and financially pon dah makin okayh ~

2. Pimple - haaa...ini pon lagi satu...dah macam musuh negara...belia benci pimple..! hahaha~ mesti beli my 'secret weapon' yang hampir habis tuh, untuk memerangi pimple nih...!

3. Hairstyle - (nih bukan masalah... tapi hati nih yang bermasalah...heehe~ kejap nak panjang sampai ke pinggang..kejap nak pendek atas bahu...kejap nak wavy xpon lurus...xpon colour.. memang minat ubah2 hairstyle..) actually I minat hairstyle long and wavy...kalau pendek suka layer paras bahu, Mr. Okhairu minat juga ;) ...sekarang I have short hair .. so xsabar menunggu proses dia memanjang...nak wat mcm2 style... ;)

4. Job - At the moment..saya penganggur tegar dirumah... heee~ haa... actually menunggu call dari office..I internship kat company tuh..my boss kata nak call dalam masa terdekat nih...tapi xda call lagi pon...mcm dah boring duduk rumah, xda source of income..hurmmm

5. Shopping - haa...ada ke ini pon termasuk dlm to-do-list? hahaha...yer...sangat penting..=p masa dah pegang duit sendiri nati mesti la kita membeli barang2 yang selama nih kita nak ( xsampai hati minta kat parents) kalau nak di list kan...penat tangan type nih...hehehe...so jot down kat dalam 'otak' je.... ;)

5. Car - banyak my friends dah pakai kereta masa sekolah and kat U lagi dah...I dah di kira tertinggal jauh ber-kilometer jauh nye...Tapi.. Percaya atau tidak...saya tidak la se-exited kwn2 lain untuk ada kereta..so buat ape nak ada lisence kan...heee~ so driving lisence pon xda,ingat lagi masa amik L pon sbb kakak n adik paksa2...siap dorang yang bawak I pegi daftar amik lisence.. umur dah 22 kot..mmg patut kot my sibling paksa I..but I know..oneday..I must have my driving lisence and my own car..reason why? Its a necessity. Full stop. So saya juga ada impian pasal kereta...I want to buy my very first own car...dengan duit sendiri..bluwekkk~ konon nye...hahaha..hmmm, kalau leh 'paw' abah duit downpayment pon okayh kot..heeehe~ tengok lah macam mane..tapi lagi suka downpayment pon saya bayar sendiri, sbb berat mulut nak minta dari parent...monthly plak mmg dah jadi my accountability lar.. Kereta ape? Bila? Wahhh~ semua itu tahun depan la saya boleh jawab.. =p

6. Master Degree - Bila plak nih? haa...I have no idea..may be..it just maybe..paling awal next year la kot...(paling lambat xtau la bila...kekekeke~ )..nak wat part time weekend...further dalam course ape pon xdecide lagi...kalau ada yang nak sponsor..woww..lagi seronok...kan..kan.. haihh..kalau x...guna duit sendiri la jawabnye... (-_-")





My Do It Right This Time List

1. Test JPJ : Yup...saya failed on the road baru2 nih...haishh~ (-_-") sekarang terpikir...bila dah start keja about 2-3 months nati baru la ambil balik driving test on the road tuh..sbb susah kot nak apply on leave nati...


Tajuk entry mcm x selari ngan isi kandungan...haaa. peduli la...mayb bukan ada yang baca pon kan.. (^_~)

xoxo
Love Lin

ILYSM

Sometimes, things happened , and it gone bad.I'm so stupid,coz I overlooked at something..doesn't realize it will hurting you again..and again. I'm so sorry..If only you know, I was very cautious in very single step that I took before..words and actions.. I really didn't mean to..

One step closer

With the flaming desire deep inside me and determination to achieve all my dreams, there is a doubt. I don't know what future brings. But I do believe after all the work hard and effort that I put for almost anything ( to things that I really2 want in my life). All I have to do now, is for me to accept faith..... Faith that already written for me..I realize that there is no longer the need for me to have a sense of control in my life, things will flow as they will beautifully..Faith is a passionate intuition. Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.

Yesterday,everything that I planned went well.Today,everything going well. One step closer.. Tomorrow will be a new chapter in my life and hopefully everything goes right and well too. Really cant wait. Wish me luck. And I hope things are going well for you guys too.. =)

xoxo
Love Lin.

Happy Mothers Days

On this Mother’s Day, I'm sure everyone want to gift something different to their mom, which will make her smile and also let her know how much means to you. In case I am thinking of giving her a greeting card..Celebration? Gift? Cake? Flowers? hmmm semua nih berlegar2 dlm kepala..Its mothers day..what should I do to make My Beloved Mom,and also my two elder sister yg dah bergelar ibu juga untuk feel terharu ye... Status sy sekarang sebagai penggangur tegar..heehe..(baru habis internship...xda keja lagi...duit PTPTN pon dah xdapat da...)I need source of income...untuk buy card, gift, flowers and what-so-eva utk celebrate...


Think..think...think... hmm i come to a conclusion yg saya tetap tiada $ untuk prepare surprise party for them. Haiyok.. (-_-") .. frust juga... baru terasa betapa..(betol ke spell ayat betapa tuh? ahhh biar la...)betapa penting nye...hmmm ayat mcm x kena... here we go again... $ kadang2 mmg penting saat2 begini...


Since selama ni sy bertahun2 menjadi anak mak yg sgt manja..(mcm pemalas pon ada...errkk ...teruk betol..).mengharap kan mak sy selalu nye... Mulai hari ini nak luangkan masa lebih sedikit ngan my mom..selalu nye asyik kat Shah Alam...or keja...Here's my plan...plan bwh budget @ dlm erti kata lain...x perlukan duit... Sy mengambil alih tugas Ibu... woow mcm hebat je konon ye... ohh tidak..mana mungkin sy larat...ambil alih tugas my mom setakat yg sy mampu.. iaitu Hari ni... sy mengemas rumah... memcuci pinggan...dan membasuh baju.. yer.. sy tau nmpk remeh...sgt sedikit sumbangan ini in comparison with my mom punya jasa...dia repeat routine ni every single day since 31 years dulu... (start dia melahirkan my older brother Raymie.. 31 years old dah abg sy skarang.. )


Kakak2...Jehan n Raihan yang merupakan my bestfriends..Both of them pon dah bergelar Ibu... sy ingin mbalas jasa dgn menjaga dan meluang kan masa bersama anak2 mereka...heee.. jadi bbysitter untuk anak2 saudara bila both of my sister perlukan sy...

My plan lebih kepada long term punya plan..=) kalau ada duit lebih nati...baru la sy cuba buat surprise party utk celebrate walaupon bukan pada tarikh 9 MAy... mereka ni suppose diraikan setiap hari..

Considering the amount of love and care that a mother endows her children with, she should be thanked every day. However, since this is not always possible and makes the relationship too much formal, a specific day has been reserved for making a mother feel special kan...and the day is called ‘Mother’s day’. My mom is one of the most important persons in my life and I never hesitate to tell her how much I love her and care for her by action.It’s a day to make her feel special and honored. Though we owe every single day to our mothers, a special day to celebrate mom is Mother’s Day. She cares for us in the best possible manner each day.... I love you Mak.. and I always need you...

H.A.P.P.Y M.O.T.H.E.R.S D.A.Y.S